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My first initial reaction to Disney pulling a pair of pajamas from their online stores was "so what it's just a pair of pajamas Why did they care?" Every summer I spent time at my grandparents houses. My Grandma had shelves full of breakable glass ornaments and a lot of memorabilia from their families, and from their own adventures in which they participated in rodeo events and Gymkhana. My Grandparents were farmers and my Grandpa was a full-blown blue jeans and 10 Gallon hat wearing cowboy. My six year old self absolutely loved going to visit because I was immersed in that culture for the week or two and boy did I embrace it. I would wake up hours earlier than I normally would, race downstairs, put on my rubber boots and ran out to go do my "chores". These weren't chores that my Grandparents actually assigned to me they were self-assigned because I wanted to help on the farm. It actually consisted of me getting it bucket and going out and collectin

     A  whore with  a white sk irt and black thong dancing  around a fire set in  my   backyard. A half duplex  with paint peeling off the siding ,  parked at  the base of a hill by  the  railroad  tracks in the ghetto industrial area of south east Calgary.   Long bearded bikers with leather vests and oil stained denim walking in and out of  my home as they pleased.  A sketchy couple living in the basement  spray painting every wall of the basement in colorful  words of aggression towards my mother ,  who  by the way had   way too many boyfriends.  Waking up with my sister, completely alone in a dark house  realizing we were left at home by ourselves again.        These  are memories that helped me come to the decision that when I grow up, I was going to  be married, have a stable home, be successful in a chosen career and  when I brought a child into the world that I would provide a life that I never got to experience.  So I made a plan  to be  better than my up bringing . I